Indelible memories
I find this very true of myself, particularly from 'Your view of education' onwards. If you want to find out more about me, just read.
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.
The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Your views on education:
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
Zhi Hao is close behind at 6:32 PM
Yet another lousy term is about to end. I have done badly once again. I know I have not studied much but I don't know why I am just unable to, despite the importance of the year. I do not know what drives other people to actually pick up their books to study and be so consistently meticulous in doing all their work, being so attentive in class. Or maybe they actually aren't. They're just much smarter than me. I mean really, who isn't?
Anyway, some results which I've gotten back so far:
English- 66
Chinese - 65
Full Lit. - 72
C. Humanities - 74
A.Maths - 79
E.Maths - 63
Biology - 80
Chemistry - 76
Physics - 70
Zhi Hao is close behind at 5:44 PM
It feels like a another year has passed although its only january. Things have already resumed to full speed in the first week and Im exhausted. I would have probably collapsed and crumbled if not for the CNY break which I really do appreciate although its also due to it that Im now desperately trying to tilt my head backwards and type at the same time, with my fist full of bloody tissues. An extremely hoarse throat and nasal voice was also a consequence. Worse still, I had tripped and fallen over while trying to clear the last hurdle during P.E today. Put aside the utter embarrassment I had to endure (which wasnt much actually, since hardly anybody noticed), I am now limping. My ankle had twisted so badly that, even my father's massage combined with chinese medicated oil cannot salvage.
Worse still, tomorrow I have to make a trip to IKEA with other 'sjabers' to hunt down cheap and practical cabinets for our SJAB school HQ. I dont think a twisted ankle is going to help me much. God can the day get any better...About CNY, I watched two movies on consecutive days. 'Inkheart' and 'The Wedding Game'. Inkheart is just another Jumanji and Bedtime stories combined, while The Wedding Game became a chore to watch after a while. TWG was inundated with sexual connotations, so much so that it shouldnt have been PG in the first place. Fann Wong and Christopher Lee were in their underwear half the time, and there was too much physical contact, put aside the fact that Christoper Lee's nether region was being mutilated by FW about thrice. There were many lame and cliche jokes. I think our local jokes have finally been exhausted. Anyway, I thought it was also effective in blasting the papparazzi and critiszing the 'most of the time' irresponsible and insensitive media which is just what Im about to do in my next post. Ungracious little swine, they really are. Always sourcing out juicy escapades and sordid affairs to ramble on about.
Zhi Hao is close behind at 10:46 PM
Zhi Hao is close behind at 12:30 PM
Ok, its the last day of 2008! What a tumultous year it has been. I know I have just wasted one whole precious year away, throwing tantrunms, falling into depression, failing exams, getting four F9s at one go, skipping school, running away from home, getting myself heart break after heart break, stress after stress. I wonder how I managed to survive through it all. I can officially declare 2008 as the worst year of my life. I have never cried so much in the last decade. I have never failed my exams before in my entire academic life. I have never been met with so many obstacles before. For those who havent heard the full story, I was even almost sent to a shrink not too long ago. What with the upcoming year being one of the most important years of my life. I just gave it a horrible preface. I know no amount of regret can salvage all the desparities and redeem myself. 2008 has left a permanent scar in my life that can never be removed. If I were ever to get heart problems or cancer in the future, 2008 would have been the main cause.
Looking on the positive side, I know I have made lifelong friends this year too. I know its not exactly an easy thing to do. I've had so many friends in my previous academic years, but the friendships did not last, probably because we just had to go our seperate ways, maybe its because of external obstacles that broke us apart, maybe we just did not make enough effort to sustain the friendship. Whatever it is, I really wish that it would never happen again. We must accumulate new friendship on our life journey but we should never lose old ones. Despite all the difficulties I have been through, I know that there are many people out there that have supported me to some extend. I am especially grateful to my parents, my teachers and my friends. Nothing I ever do can repay the guidance and support.
2008 has been an extremely emotional year, the most challenging yet, but I hope that despite all this, I would have gained something from it all. :)
Zhi Hao is close behind at 1:12 PM
An update on the last 2 weeks. I've just completed the 4 day course over the last 2 weekends. The exam day is tomorrow. Have many things to study for. Sigh...Plus a 3 day camp and a Passing Out Parade to 'look forward to'.I shall spare you the b*tching and move on to the happier things. Well, we went for another short trip to a kelong resort at Bintan. The place was as run down as you would imagine, but the place itself was gorgeous. It was so scenic and windy. So windy that my hair was always in a mess. Of course I couldnt forget the 2 hour long boat journey there which almost had me vomitted and passed out if not for 'anti-giddy' pills my aunt had brought along.
Other the the trips to and fro, it was really fun. I fished for the first time. I always had a little phobia of the hook, afraid that it would pierce me or something but its something that you'll have to get used to. After a while, I wasnt that apprehensive of it. Of course you have to be prepared to remove the hook from the roof of the mouth a living fish jumping about the floor seeing blood splatter around as well as decapitate and mutilate sotongs to use as bait, hooking their body parts on the hook. Despite all this, the satisfaction of having caught a fish was enough to compensate all. I caught many small fishes while my 9 Y/O cousin who was more experienced caught several mid-sized fishes. As it was the first time, we kept trying and as a result we got quite a sizeable haul compared to the even more experienced local fishermen who just sat, chatted and waited the whole day for a huge fish to come along. My grandfather was something else. He kept fishing even through the night while we slept.
At about 5am, his efforts paid off and he finally caught a fish about 3kg. Honestly, a 3kg fish to be caught from a fishing rod is no small feat. It took my grandfather and some of the big local fishermen ,who were kind enough to help him, to reel the fish in. They even had to use a net which was actually prohibited as only fishing rods are allowed but since the fish was technically caught by a rod, they couldnt do anything. Im suprised the string hasnt broke. Sadly I wasnt there to witness it myself and had to rely on my mother's recount. She ran out of the 'hut' immediately when my grandfather shouted loud enough to wake the whole kelong. I was too sleepy to move. Ok some pictures. I was too engrossed in fishing I didnt take many pictures. I cant believe I didnt take any picture of the fishes we caught. Arghh. It was quite a big variety. We even caught a stingray and a non edible catfish which we threw back into the sea.
Zhi Hao is close behind at 5:45 PM
My throat is cracking and all the sounds around me seem to be muffled. I had never screamed so much in ages, neither have so much people (including our bad girl) screamed back at me so loudly before. GOD, Rihanna was beyond awesome. The 1.8m tall lady made a dramatic entrance by descending from the ceiling on a disc only about half a metre in diameter screaming 'bum bum be dum bum bum be dum bum...'...only to find out that her microphone was malfunctioning a few seconds later. Like what the hell...of all the microphone on stage (including those supporting/backup singers), it had to be hers that had technical difficulties. As a result most of 'Disturbia' was left unsung. Considering that 'disturbia' is one of her latest and most favourited hit, and that it was the entrance song, it was terribly dissapointing.
Anyway, I guess the following songs compensated for this, as I screamed myself hoarse, along with a stadium full of people, the world's favourite hits. Another thing that compensated the problem was also her punctuality. Remembering that I was squashed in the middle of an extremely uncouth and excessively noisy crowd, with kissing couples all around and had to wait more than hour for Linkin Park to make their appearance, Rihanna seemed a whole lot more courteous.
However some tiffs over seats during the short wait was enough to put anyone off. A caucasian lady standing in my leg room was towering over all the sitted audience and having an arguement with a group of girls sitting beside me, trying to claim her seat, supposedly entitled to her from the ticket she purchased. According to the usher, it was free seating and the only restriction was the section of the Stadium we are allowed to sit in. Apparently the lady had not attended a concert in her life as ahe didnt expect free seating. Anyway, everyone in the section was staring at her and the girls. Everybody around also started waging a silent and indirect verbal war, some for and some against free seating. In the end, the girls were removed and sent to better seats in the front while the caucasian lady claimed her seat. It was terrible as an usher had to be called in to manage the situation. I felt that the lady hadnt be so provocative and aggresive whem claiming her seat while sistic should inform the audience of free seating before hand. According to Mikhail's arguement which was for free seating - since everyone in a particular section had paid the same ticket price, free seating should be allowed and served by a first come, first serve basis. Inevitably, being early always pays.
Some pictures:
Next is our trip to melaka. I'm too lazy to elaborate, but anyway, Im so happy I managed to buy many clothes there. The pictures shall do the talking.
Zhi Hao is close behind at 12:24 PM
